Twenty-five years ago, when I was employed, all I wanted was to be self-employed. When I was self-employed all I wanted was to become a business owner (for a full explanation of the difference, read or listen to ‘The E-Myth Revisited’ by Michael Gerber. Highly recommended).
Becoming a business owner eventually, all I wanted was to have an empty diary to enable me to do the creative part of the business, undisturbed. So I started zoning my diary. Monday was Admin & Accounts, Friday was Marketing & Meetings, Tuesday to Thursday was working ‘in’ the business, E-Myth style. This worked happily for years.
Then I noticed that on the days when I had nothing in the diary but I knew what I wanted to do, well, those days felt like heaven. I did also notice that it took me a while to get going, but I’d always achieve what I wanted to achieve, albeit often in the last hour or so of the working day.
Then the dreams of having nothing in my diary all week started. No appointments, nowhere to be, what bliss I thought.
How much of the fun, creative stuff could I achieve if there were NO appointments in my diary?
Over this last year or so, apart from one client webinar call at 11 am on a Thursday, and one Webinar where I assisted a friend by co-hosting with his webinar call in the afternoon, this dream came to pass.
Because I wasn’t taking on new mentoring clients, eventually the clients I had came to the end of their year’s membership of Clicks & Leads Academy and I bade them a fond adieu with the words ‘My email is always open to you’.
Now all I had to do was tend my investments, fulfill that one commitment to co-host the webinar on Thursday afternoon, and get creative.
“The desire to create is one of the deepest yearnings of the human soul.” — Dieter F. Uchtdorf
But then we moved house suddenly, having seen my ideal apartment after one week of looking. This took a month, even with my having no possessions and everything going so smoothly.
I’ve discovered a year and a half of lockdown has frazzled my nerves, to the point where settling down to even plan, let alone write a new business book or finish my sci-fi novel is inconceivable. So I started to listen to relevant episodes of the ‘Storygrid’ podcast to try and get the old creativity flowing again. Usually, this stimulation is more than enough.
Nothing. I fell asleep.
(Sorry, Shawn & Tim!)
But all the while, day by day, the creative tension was building and building inside me.
Testing as a Creator (with secondary Star) in Wealth Dynamics, apparently I need to create something all the time or things are not right. I am also a very fast typist, with my fingers well able to keep up with my flow of thoughts, so it’s not hard to write whereas it is somewhat harder to make a video.
I felt all bunged up, constipated, and invisible (there’s the Star part of my WD profile emerging) without any creative output at all. Apart from all the external distractions, I resisted for ages as there’s no ‘point’ as such, nothing to sell, no marketing to do but then I just wondered if I would simply feel better if I did.
Eventually, chores are done, and Phoebe away for a couple of days, I finally just sat down and started to write.
Funny thing that, I immediately felt calmer and more ‘on purpose’.
So I’m just going to sit down and write a short blog post every day, share it on Twitter, Facebook, and possibly Instagram, mail it out to the teeny tiny mailing list that I’ve not been able to let go of, and just see how I feel and what happens.
Because something will happen. You’ll see.
“To practice any art, no matter how well or badly, is a way to make your soul grow. So do it.” — Kurt Vonnegut